The love...

My story starts like a million others - girl gets her heart broken at a young age, stops believing in love, meets guy who makes her change and open up. But unlike a million other stories, mine doesn't have a happy ending.

I signed up to a dating website when I was bored. It was just out of curiosity at first and to meet new people, since I love to travel. Until one day this guy comes up as a suggestion. A quick look at his profile and I immediately decided to congratulate him for such a well written about me section. And so it all started. Long messages being exchanged every single day. Confessions, complaints, all the things you would talk to a friend, we wrote to each other. We became friends, but something was growing inside me, a weird, unsettling feeling, but I decided to shrug and let it go. Until the day I drunkenly decided to tell you everything - all my feelings and thoughts. And to my surprise you said you felt the same and when you did so... oh, it was like a breath of fresh air. I finally felt happy after so many years of faking smiles and trying to drag myself through life. My heart filled with hope.

And when I thought I couldn't be happier, you said you were coming to my country to visit me. My insecurities took me by storm and I started to think that it was to good to be true. That such a good looking guy would never want a girl like me.
But you came, and I reunited all the courage I could to meet you, and when I first saw you I knew I had found someone worth fighting for. I knew that it would be worth all the heartache, the distance and the insecurities.

My life became you. I would go out and think about you all the time, always wishing you were here. I would dream about you. I would thinking of you so much that it started to frighten me.

After you left I was such a mess that I decided that for the first time I had to go after someone. And so I did. I flew all the way to your country so I could see you again. And for some reason, everything was so fucked up. You met me once and then ignored me, ran away from me, and words can't explain how painful it was, how broken my heart was. I would walk around the streets of that foreign and unknown country trying to find reasons for all that, trying to fool myself into thinking you were just too busy to meet me, that I came at the wrong time. I had to fool myself, otherwise I wouldn't be able to take it. I would just... break.

After many attempts to contact you, you finally responded. We had dinner. And then all of a sudden you said you wanted me to be your girlfriend. At first I thought it was a joke, because it was too good to be true, way too good. But you said it again later that night, and I remember going back to my hotel with the biggest smile on my face. That was the only day when I was truly happy. I made plans to move to your country, or to a country nearby so we could be closer and give us a shot. But then you ignored me again after that, and I was left puzzled. I had to come back home broken hearted, lost, without knowing what to do.

Ever since that day you were never the same, we were never the same, and I wonder what went wrong. There isn't a day that goes by without me thinking of you, longing for you. The sadness I felt before meeting you came back. And even though you broke my heart so many times, I would still do whatever I can to be closer to you, to be with you. I want the truth, I want your honesty back. I wish you would just tell me how you're feeling so I can stop torturing myself. Because I want you, I want us. I want me there with you, or you here. I want to cross streets holding hands, have dinners, watch old movies and walk around town. I want adventures, drunken nights. I want happiness. I want you, only you.

I want to know what's broken so I can fix it, because I can't imagine myself living a life without you.

Some special moments...

D best moment of my life ws vn i frst saw ma mom frm small cute n a nt fully opened eyes,whn i enterd dis beautiful heaven called earth.!!

There z no doubt dat dis wrld z heaven n hell too n evn heaven at its best n hell at its worst too...:P

Bt v hav to fyt n move on any situation n so i tried n tryin too n hlpin also bt i knw its too difficult to do n so easy to write lyk m doin...lolz

D best way i found to b happy z any how in any situation js try to relax n smile n thn say I AM SEXY CUTE....N ME ROCK...YO!!!

It sounds funny bt really man it wrks...

Hmm one f ma frnd has well said dat to liv lyf z vry easy n v mak it hard by ourself..
You only live once, but if you work it right, once is enough.

There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.

n i hav few angels in ma lyf lyk ma mum sisy all brthrs n sm gud frnz n ya i m a bit extro bt neva TRUST anybdy...

 
N ya i do hav a mind wich finks about money....:P

hmm sm gud lines abt lyf r as follows....

Happy are those who dream dreams and are ready to pay the price to make them come true.

1) Heavy rains remind us of challenges in life. Never ask for a lighter rain. Just pray for a better umbrella. That is attitude.

2) When flood comes, fish eat ants & when flood recedes, ants eat fish. Only time matters.

Just hold on, God gives opportunity to everyone!

3) Some people always throw stones in your path. It depends on you what you make with them, Wall or Bridge?

Remember you are the architect of your life.

4) Every problem has (n+1) solutions, where n is the number of solutions that you have tried and 1 is that you have not tried. That’s life.

5) It’s not important to hold all the good cards in life. But it’s important how well you play with the cards which you hold.

6) Often when we lose all hope & think this is the end, God smiles from above and says, "relax dear its just a bend. Not the end". Have Faith and have a successful life.

7) When you feel sad, to cheer up just go to the mirror and say, "Damn I am really so cute" and you will overcome your sadness. But don’t make this a habit coz liars go to hell.

8) One of the basic differences between God and human is, God gives, gives and forgives. But human gets, gets, gets and forgets. Be thankful in life!

And a cute bt true poem about lyf made by me n chckd by a frnd n hop u lyk it....

I stand by my window

watching the streets below

the multicolored shadows moving to n fro

some in a rush not to b late

some too slow cos they got time to waste

some hiding behind the walls

smoking deep

some crying loud

cos they got no eyes for those tears to keep

some riding bikes n flying in air

some walking head down

cos they got none to share

sum stretching arms asking for penny

some bunking away waisting money

I turned my head to the other lane

but there too the situation was same

so I closed my window n sat on a mat

pondering on the views I have just had

I was thinking deeply

n suddenly someone called my name

I turned back in vain

it was aunt of mine saying me to go

I had to go cos I was getting late

I dressed myself n stepped out

in the world full of love, jealousy, sadness n hate…